finding hope beyond

Begining of February I started my new job in social services, children and youth department. Having more so thought of the hours, the pay and my collegees, I had not throughoutly considered what the job would actually consist of. Of course I knew the job describtion yet I did not know how much it would come to affect me.

Now tree weeks later I am starting to comprehend what I got myself into.

In my working hours I have to deal with the intens complex social problems of children who were raised in homes with violence, abuse, neclect in all sorts of aspects that no child should have to experience in the degree that the children I work with have. The service we offer is to help these children getting an appropiate childhood. Maybe this only means that the parents need some help to learn this, it could also mean a fosterhome or a professional institution if the neclect has damaged the child to such a degree that it will need 24 hour treatment.

Point is we are trying to save these children, unfortunantly we are not able to save all of them. That is almost unbearable and I am not sure if I will be able to accept that yet, if I am not, I am not sure this is the right sort of job for me. For now I am including my higher power God, I am completely helpless and I have to hope that there is hope, somehow God has that for me.

This reminds me of a sermon in my childhood I for some reason still remember about me doing the possible and God doing the impossible.

thoughts on a studie done

So, it´s 7.05am and i don´t have to leave for another 15 min. I woke up before my alarm, before 6 and couldn´t sleep any more. I couldn´t FALL asleep either, bummer. I am starting my new job today, first job as a social worker.

Last week I graduated. I graduated and I am so relieved. I have never cared too much for the studie, it´s been some hard years for me. I can count on one hand the lessons I found interesting and that includes my internship.

I know I will love working though, then I will learn.

It´s not that I didn´t get anything out of studying. I have some friends now that I will stay in touch with, probably for the rest of my life or at least for many years to come. I engaged in studentgroups and got to know many other students than the ones from my semester. It was enriching if not with theories then with relations. Now I will brush my teeth and go to work, have a wonderful day!