a tv cry

well well, today was my day to be a tv crier (??..!!)

seriously i have been watching some wedding programs and then one of these song competition programs, where it´s kids.

oh my gosh, the love in the weddings, the kid who´s father comes all the way from america to see her in the finals, the overjoyed judges. my eyes kept overflowing...

i feel like a crazy woman, but then again, what woman is not?:-)

and all that jazzzzzzzzzzz

sometimes i forget how much i love jazz and i listen to other music...but then out of the blue i get a song stuck in my head from a jazz album and i go and lend a ton of cds at the library and listen till i am full again:-D

jazz is just so life confirming, happy, joyful, i LOVE it....and it makes my day if it´s a lady singing in french, OOOOOOOOOOH, i get extra happy (!!??!...)

so at my latest venture to the library i got some old and new artists

ella and louis (fitzgerald/armstrong)
billy holliday
stacey kent
madeleine Peyroux

nice mix:-D

a treefold horay for vacuumcleaners

horay horay horaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!

today, as well as the other time this week where i have brought out the vacuumcleaner, i have been filled with gratitude like you should only be for something deep and meaningful, and not a dumb vacuumcleaner!

you may think why?

well let me tell you, even if you don´t wanna know!

IT CLEANS, it really cleans like no broom can clean. i have been stuck with a broom for the last couple of months and it´s just not the same. there is too many corners that collects dust here. anyone with dust allergies would not have been able to live in our house in that period. just a week ago my roomie brought home a new vacuumcleaner (the old one....long story...) and since i have not been able to stop using it:-)

so here´s to home appliances that makes your day:-D

the highs and lows of math

every tuesday evening i am in a math course. i enrolled to get math to the level i need, in order to apply for a new study next year.

let me tell you, the emotions i go through in 4 hours are like a rollercoaster ride.

i come in, anticipating "what will the evening bring?"... "will i be able to understand?"
(last time i felt devasted after leaving class cause i had not understood a single thing the teacher said, so obviously i was bound to feel a little nervous and some anticipatation about tonight)

the teacher then starts off where he ended last time

...i am on the edge, i wanna understand...
he quickly moves on to something totally different and a slow panic starts to arouse within me...

BUT i am keeping calm trying to focus, concentrate
(trying to remember what a friend told me....RELAX, if you panic you will never get it!!)
...i am getting to the point of tears, because i just don´t get it. if i don´t control myself i will actually start crying...

i keep telling myself to calm down and focus,
while i also keep telling myself i dont get it, i dont get it i dont get......

and then suddenly out of the blue i start understanding as we do the exercises, and i then desperately hold on to the knowledge, writting down like crazy not to forget, practising on the monster calculator (TI89) and still trying to follow the teacher.

i mean seriously it´s a mayor brain work out, i am completely wasted after those four hours, my brain is in cramps and i am thinking why the hell am i doing this???

but you know somehow it´s satisfying to get it and then to be smarter that way:-) though it´s a hard and tough road...(could you hear the preacher in that???:-))

highlight of today

taking a nap at my friends´ house, while the mommy was cooking and the daddy was fixing my flat tire and their little boy kept coming over standing with his face right by mine and laughing this cute adorable laugh. he is a little darling and he entertained us all by singing da da daaa after dinner crawling up on a chair with his face lifted up and closing his eyes now and then..baby is only 1½years.

nothing like taking a nap on the couch in a family home, the sounds are different, i loved it!